Understanding Body Signals
Exercise never entered my life as a preference, it entered because my body made it necessary. Living with systemic lupus, Sjögren’s syndrome, celiac disease, and polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) means something is always happening beneath the surface, whether I acknowledge it or not. Inflammation builds quietly and then all at once. Chronic fatigue is not the type of tired that equates to sleep deprivation, it is a full-body heaviness that seeps into cognition, creates brain fog, slows processing, and makes even simple decisions feel disproportionate.
Hormones shift without warning, creating imbalances that leave mood, energy, and focus scattered and unpredictable. In addition to these medical conditions, I live with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD), attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). These diagnoses make it even more difficult to understand what I am feeling on any given day.
There were long stretches of time when I could not tell whether my symptoms were coming from anxiety, inflammation, or the fatigue that never seemed to lift. Was I overwhelmed because of stress, or because of blood sugar instability? Was I dissociating, or simply exhausted?
That confusion left me feeling unsteady and frustrated. When I could not trust my own internal cues, it became nearly impossible to respond to life in a way that felt grounded. My mind never felt separate from my body. It reacted to it, adapted to it, and at times became completely overwhelmed by it.
Why Fitness Might Feel Out of Reach
For most of my life, fitness felt like something that belonged to other people. People with consistent energy. People whose bodies responded predictably. People who could rely on motivation without having to negotiate with fatigue, pain, or brain fog.
Chronic fatigue made movement feel like an unreasonable demand, while brain fog made it difficult to organize, initiate, and sustain any kind of routine. Lupus flares appeared without warning and derailed progress I had just begun to build. Sjögren’s left me feeling depleted in a way that rest alone never resolved. PCOS affected my metabolism and hormonal balance, making physical changes feel painfully slow at times. Celiac disease added another layer of unpredictability because even minor dietary missteps could trigger days of inflammation, discomfort, and mental cloudiness.
It was never a lack of discipline. It was a constant negotiation with a body that did not naturally operate on stable ground.
I would start, stop, restart, and stop again. Every attempt felt fragile, and every routine felt temporary. There is a particular kind of frustration that comes from wanting consistency and repeatedly being interrupted by your own physiology.
About eight years ago, something shifted. Not dramatically, and not all at once, but enough to matter. I began accepting my body’s limitations instead of fighting against them. With that acceptance came a more intentional and flexible approach to fitness.
I stopped expecting linear progress and started working with my body instead of against it.
That shift did not make things easy, but it made them possible.
When Structure Disappears
Like many people, I experienced a major setback during the COVID-19 pandemic.
The closure of gyms and disruption of routines removed the structure I had worked so hard to build. The rhythm that had taken years to establish quietly unraveled. For someone who is neurodivergent, structure is not merely helpful, it is often essential.
What had taken years to stabilize disappeared much faster than I expected.
At the beginning of 2025, I made the decision to return to fitness intentionally and deliberately. Not with unrealistic expectations, but with clarity. I knew I had muscle memory working in my favor. I remembered what had helped me before, and I knew what life felt like without movement.
Reintegrating fitness was not optional.
It was necessary.
Today, I am consistent and committed. While it remains challenging at times, I genuinely love what it adds to my life.
The Tension Between Resistance and Necessity
There are still days when my body resists movement entirely.
Days when fatigue feels heavy. Days when brain fog is dense. Days when every instinct tells me to remain still.
Ironically, those are often the days when movement helps the most.
That is one of the most difficult realities of living with chronic illness or mental health challenges. The symptoms that make exercise feel impossible are often the same symptoms that exercise helps regulate.
This does not mean pushing aggressively through pain or ignoring your body’s signals. It means understanding what kind of movement is supportive in that moment and engaging with it anyway, even if it is minimal.
Because movement is not simply physical activity.
It is regulation.
How Movement Changes the Internal State
Living with multiple chronic health conditions has taught me that movement affects far more than physical fitness.
With lupus, gentle and consistent exercise helps reduce inflammation, improve circulation, and lessen the heavy stagnation that often accompanies flares.
With Sjögren’s syndrome, movement improves circulation and lymphatic flow, helping combat the depletion and sluggishness that can build when stillness takes over.
For PCOS, exercise improves insulin sensitivity and helps regulate blood sugar. As those systems stabilize, energy becomes more consistent, mood fluctuations become less intense, and the body feels less reactive.
Celiac disease is often misunderstood as simply a gluten intolerance, but many adults are diagnosed after years of nutrient malabsorption and gastrointestinal distress. Regular movement supports digestion, improves circulation, and helps the body utilize nutrients more effectively.
The impact on mental health is equally significant.
Exercise lowers baseline anxiety, reduces physical tension, and creates an outlet for energy that might otherwise remain trapped in the nervous system. For individuals with ADHD, physical activity can increase dopamine and norepinephrine, improving focus and follow-through. For those living with PTSD, movement can help discharge stress and restore a sense of connection between body and mind that trauma often disrupts.
Across all of these conditions, the common thread is regulation.
Movement does not eliminate symptoms, but it often reduces their intensity and increases our ability to navigate them.
Learning to Work With Your Body, Not Against It
One of the hardest lessons I learned was that fitness goals should be based on sustainability, not intensity.
There were times when I pushed too hard, believing that more effort would automatically produce better results. Instead, it triggered flare-ups, exhaustion, and setbacks that took days to recover from.
That approach was not sustainable.
Today, I focus on consistency and responsiveness.
Some days that means a structured workout. Other days it means walking, stretching, or simply moving enough to prevent a complete shutdown. The form changes, but the commitment remains.
That flexibility is what allows consistency to exist over the long term.
Why This Applies to You, Too
While my experience is shaped by specific diagnoses, the underlying pattern is one I see repeatedly in my work as a therapist.
Different people experience different symptoms, but the core issue is often the same. The body becomes dysregulated, and the mind works overtime trying to compensate.
Movement helps support the system from the bottom up.
Whether someone is struggling with anxiety, depression, trauma, hormonal imbalances, chronic illness, burnout, or prolonged stress, movement consistently serves as a stabilizing force.
Not as a cure.
But as a foundation.
Conclusion and Final Thoughts
Exercise is not something I do because it is easy. It is something I do because I understand what it gives me.
It helps regulate inflammation, stabilize energy, support hormonal balance, improve focus, and strengthen emotional resilience in ways that are both tangible and consistent.
There are still days when everything in me resists it.
But I also know that when I engage with movement, even minimally, I am actively supporting my ability to function.
It is not about perfection.
It is about participation.
And over time, that participation becomes one of the most reliable forms of support in a system that is otherwise unpredictable.
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Ciao for now,
Stefania Vaccaro, MA, MFA, NCRC
Registered Mental Health Counselor at Breaking Free Services, LLC